Lesallan | August 21, 2025

Navigating Doubt: A Theological Reflection

When Faith Felt Unsettled

I remember standing by the window of my childhood bedroom, wrestling with questions no sermon seemed to answer. I had just lost a close friend, and the familiar comforts of prayer sounded hollow. Every promise I had kept felt like sand slipping through my fingers. In that season of grief, I prayed with tears more than words, and it was there—on that windowsill—that I learned doubt can be the soil in which deeper trust takes root.

Biblical Voices in the Dark

Thomas: Famously known as “Doubting Thomas,” he refused to believe in the resurrection until he saw and touched the wounds of Christ. His insistence was not arrogant; he longed for a faith that stood, not hearsay. Jesus met him in his skepticism and invited Thomas into a tangible encounter, saying, “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” 

Elijah: After a mighty victory over the prophets of Baal, Elijah fled from Queen Jezebel and hid under a broom tree, convinced he was the last faithful servant of God. His prayer, “Take my life,” reveals a heart overwhelmed by fear and isolation. Yet God met him not in earthquake or fire, but in a gentle whisper (1 Kings 19), reminding Elijah that divine presence often arrives softly when we feel unworthy.

Psalm 42:5–6—A Roadmap for Honest Prayer

“My soul is cast down within me; therefore, I will remember you from the land of Jordan and of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. Deep calls too deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your breakers and your waves have gone over me. By day, the Lord commands his steadfast love, and at night his song is with me—a prayer to the God of my life.” 

These verses model how to bring our raw emotions before God:

In times of turmoil, it is essential to acknowledge the downcast soul without shame, allowing ourselves to feel and express our struggles openly. We can find strength in remembering God’s past faithfulness, which serves as a reliable anchor during stormy times. It is important to recognize the reality of our turmoil, like the waves that crash over us, while also embracing the divine comfort that comes as a “song in the night.” By translating our feelings into prayer instead of burying them, we open a dialogue with the divine, fostering healing and hope amidst our challenges.

When doubt crashes like breakers, let Psalm 42 guide you into transparency and perseverance.

Your Turn: Questions and Testimonies

Doubt does not end after one blog post—it is an ongoing journey we walk together. In the comments below, share:

1. A question you have wrestled with in your faith.

2. A testimony of how God met you amid uncertainty.

I will gather your stories and questions for a future Q&A series, creating space for honest dialogue and collective encouragement.

Thank you for reading. Next week, we will explore how composing a lament psalm can become a spiritual practice of honesty and hope. If you would like to prepare, try writing your four-line lament and bring it to our community conversation.

Blessings,

Lesallan


Lesallan

Lesallan Bostron is a Christian leader, writer, and practitioner committed to incarnational ministry and cross‑cultural partnership. He holds a Bachelor of Arts in Christian Leadership and combines academic study with hands‑on experience in community engagement, discipleship, and mission strategy. Lesallan’s work emphasizes culturally sensitive approaches that prioritize local leadership, long‑term sustainability, and spiritual formation. His vocational journey includes service in the Air Force, experience in sales, and practical stewardship of rural life, including horse care and farm work. These varied roles have shaped his pastoral instincts, resilience, and capacity to work across social and cultural boundaries. Lesallan brings this practical wisdom into classroom settings, short‑term mission planning, and curriculum design, always centering humility, listening, and mutual accountability. Lesallan’s research and writing focus on rethinking mission from models of exportation to models of partnership. He draws on historical examples, contemporary missiological scholarship, and lived practice to advocate for pre‑departure listening, capacity transfer, and reparative accountability. His devotional writing and teaching aim to bridge academic insight and spiritual formation, helping churches and practitioners translate theology into ethical, effective ministry. Available for speaking, teaching, and collaborative projects, Lesallan seeks partnerships that honor local agency and cultivate sustainable discipleship. He lives in Wisconsin and welcomes conversation with pastors, mission leaders, and educators who are committed to faithful, contextually wise engagement.